How did I wind up signing myself up as a chef for 6 weeks in South Africa? I can’t cook toast. I decided to try, how often does one get the opportunity to travel to South Africa and go hunting rather inexpensively? My lack of cooking ability and the timeframe hindered my duties as a chef, but Fred, the ranch owner offered me the trip anyway.
That’s crazy! 20 years later and never a vacation without my kids, I was on my way to South Africa. My life would never be the same again. As a bereaved parent, I experience a lot of anxiety. I got online to purchase my ticket to South Africa…to go hunting! I had never killed anything bigger than a flea. After completing all of the information on the page, I was directed to SUBMIT/CANCEL. Oh my gosh! CANCEL.
I would try again tomorrow.
$1895.00, for a ticket to Africa? Are you serious? Name, address, credit card number, oh my gosh, what was I thinking? Reluctantly, I filled out the form and came to the purchase screen’s two options. Cancel or Submit? My heart began to race and my stomach began to churn. I couldn’t go to South Africa by myself. What loser travels alone? I couldn’t go without my kids. I had responsibilities. CANCEL!
I would sleep on it and try again the next day.
I pulled out the laptop. I completed the information AGAIN. The rates had crept up. It was going to be way too expensive to go to South Africa, especially on a teacher’s salary. Now was the time, just hit SUBMIT! Do it! I began to perspire. I needed to be home if my adult kids needed me. I couldn’t go and have a good time. My son had died. CANCEL!
This time I put the laptop away knowing I would never make it to South Africa. Life sucks!
Two weeks went by and the phone rang, “Yes, Fred, of course I got my ticket, I can’t wait!” Half of that was true, half not. A chance of a lifetime, but I had to get past CANCEL! I re-entered my information. Now $2500.00! I was just sick to my stomach. How could I afford this? I closed my eyes. Click! I just purchased a ticket to somewhere in Africa!